Post Trauma Climactic Oblivion

Gone from angry to somewhat apathetic, got to let some things sink in, seems as though I can use will power to do and not do certain things, but to want anything to feel anything I am subjected to someone stepping in with 'thats not allowed' 'its all in your imagination' 'too bad you can't have it, we can have what we want and what we want is to see confined in a little box.
At least I got confirmation that someone does read what I put in here, someone that likes to eat ice cream when its raining - thanks for letting me know that you hear me and thought enough to talk to me about it even if you may not understand what I am going through at the moment, I don't know you that well but I do think you are more a friend then some that are more like associates although they use the friend and family labels.