Last monday night was a hectic one emotionally, the week before I had been on a massive high friday to friday seriously if I could have distilled it into a pill I would make a fortune from the club scene, then I came down hard.
There was nothing new in what I sent to 5 friends, it was old feelings/ thoughts of suicide. Disconnecion & misunderstanding. Comunication at times difficult. Working on getting these things out. To be grounded and satisied to be in this world.
Of the messages I got (refused to answer the phone that night) one that came in the morning meant the most '...U R Gods precious...nothing u or anyone does can ever stop Him from loving u...'