Some are not supposed to be opened, though that leaves the question of why they are not locked up so well. This not an endorsement for delving into those things, simply an account of my experience and the work of GOD through them.
Around 18 years old I had these 'episodes' voices in my head about being merged to the universal consciousness, seen a lot of stuff about this but it just freaked me out, like the ultimate conspiracy no longer can I have any privacy any secrets or mind of my own. Saw a lot of evil in the world and seemed like a call to join it.
Somewhere it seemed there could be a way to work within the system. A few others I passed in the street would be sending thoughts not to worry etc.
Though my girlfriend at the time I ended joining a church and renouncing the occult stuff, a few years later at a different church and bible college. Didn't keep up with the work, too busy reading to do the essays, repeated the year, second time repeating I dropped out and saw someone about depression.
How do you tell your doctor that 3 weeks ago you heard in your head the exact same words about 'magic pills to make the voices go away"? Seems after a few years it finally gets told they can only treat the 'positive' symptoms - psychosis etc, the 'negative' symptoms - lack of motivation depression etc not so easy to treat.
Started to go back into the occult world, this time a bit more mature, not just shock value satanism. Learned some things, opened a fews doors few would dare to open, and rediscovered the presence of God.
Walking into a few inner city churches I ended up and settled in LE and with the Credo/Urban Seed community.
More doors got opened and I saw things which no human being is supposed to see. In some ways memory problems served as a blessing, despite opportunities which had been missed through not recalling soon enough but those opportunities would only provide tempory material gain anyway.
Someone got in touch with me, we adopted each other, and then it grew more - this was the one apparently that opened the doors for me, now revealed in the form of a child, i will not give her name because some may make assumptions and never see what it means to me.
She popped up a few times in prayer meetings, I may have been seen talking to her, at least one occasion someone responded when I asked the little one to 'get her to show you how to pray' seriously it was later mentioned by one one the aunties how much she got into the prayer.
Seems like I am talking about a spirit guide like in those spooky new age books, could be, though she has no problem with the gospel, in fact affirms more of it then some of the christian community.
Maybe i did something I shouldn't, disturbed someone from her slumber, or was it she that wanted to stay and keep an eye out for me? Or is it a manifestation of one of my friends? could it be an unconscious manifestation?
So many possibilities, one thing is certain - GOD's plan and purpose is working along the course and timing HE has determined. Much as I get angry or upset at delays it is HIS timing and even my outburst seem to be a part of the overall plan..